Thursday, December 29, 2005 @ 9:46 PM
ahhhh! i did something very bad just now.
my mum's emotionally. er. down. 'cause of my grandpa's situation and i actually shouted at her! again!
ahhhh! i'm a bad kid! )':
i was sleeping... planned to sleep from 7 pm to 1 am. 'cause i want to watch sunrise. i scared later cannot wake up- so sleep from 7 pm to 1 am so that i can stay up later.
but while was asleep- i mum barge into my room and started screaming at me, "WHY YOU NEVER GO SEE AH GONG?!" i woke up and i sleepily, "HARNARH, HARNARH." then i put my hands over my ears. then she closed the door. then she open the door and screamed again. "WHY YOUR PAPA SAY YOU GOING OUT TO EAST COAST AT 1 AM?! YOU SIAO AR?! HOW TO GO?!" i screamed on my bed. "NO LAR! I WHERE GOT SAY 1 AM?! I SAID MORNING! 5+ WHEN BUS... AHHHH! I WANT TO SLEEP LAR!" then she closed the door again. and each time she close and open, it's louder and louder. very irritated. then, just when i'm about to fall asleep, SHE CAME IN AGAIN AND SCREAMED AT ME AGAIN.
i can't remember what she said, but i was so irritated i screamed at her again. "HARNARH HARNARH!"
oh God.
she went out the room without closing the door. the light was on and i couldn't sleep. i went to the door and shut the door. BANG. then i irritatedly went back to bed.
then i couldn't sleep.
and i started repenting.
oh God, you need to help me. i have seriously no patience and i'm hot-tempered and..
oh God. i've sinned again. ):
i don't want to. but yes, i did it again.
and i did it to my beloved mum.
oh man. oh God. how?
You got to help me. i don't want to be rude to her and all. i...
HAIS.
please God! help me! >.<
i'll try to go back to sleep again.